JARRELLE KALVIN CALHOUN

Jarrelle you took the master hand. I know you had to go.I wish I could have taken that ride for you. I wish I could of saw the sign. Rell did you know? I wonder would you have told me? Maybe I should of saw the signs. Angel did your hair on Tuesday it look so pretty you remember i told you so. I remember you was sitting in your car. That Friday July 16, 2004 and you was sitting in your car thinking when you gave up on making sure everybody going to the beach. Rell did you know? Rell I miss you so so much nobody in this world will ever know. Sometimes I wonder did you ask god to take you and don't take my moma my brother, sister, nephew, and daddy needs her. Rell did you do that? Rell I hope you didn't because I need you too. My world is not complete. Rell I will always blame myself that you are not here with us I am your mother and I always told you I would go thorough hell for you but not to jail (haha) I could not save you from that water I tried but you know that you was already in the master arms. I am so sorry nobody else did nothing to save my little boy. Maybe that was the master plan not for to save you. Jarrelle now I can't touch or fell you anymore please be strong until God come for me. I know you are doing well now. Maybe the first week you was confuse but you are fine now Jarrelle I am your moma I am going to worry about you and your siblings until I can't thank or fell for myself. I am sure you looking good in your Angel outfit. I think you look good in white. Jarrelle sometimes I worry that you are down in the wet ground. I know you are not. Just the flesh. That's when the devil get in my head. Jarrelle Please do what you are told so you can get the best of everything. Like your big wings I miss you and always will. My sweet boy.