JARRELLE KALVIN CALHOUN

       TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS PLEASE EMAIL THIS BACK TO ME I MAKE BOOKS FOR MY BOY EVERY YEAR SO I CAN READ IT WHEN I, AM. SAD  IT MAKE ME HAPPY. READING THINGS ABOUT MY BOY. PLEASE ANSWER. THANKS LOVE YOU ALL.

1. How did you know Rell and for how long?  The good Lord bless me with him  for (17) wonderful years
2. What did that crazy boy mean/represent to you? he is my youngest son and one of my best friends
3. What is the fondest memory you have of Rell?  so many things but I have to thank when I was sick my son is sort of shy but he fuss with those doctors and he got his respect and I did get the drugs I needed
4. Are there any quotes or sayings Rell was famous for saying to you? DON'T WORRY ITS GOING TO BE OK I WILL DO IT
5. What did you love about Rell everything Rell was my protector and he had so much love for every one he call family
6? In one word, describe Rell? my angel
7. If you could have one more conversation with Rell, what would you' tell him? son I love you and I wish it was me and not you I have live my life I was bless with three good children. I bet you would have been a good daddy. Rell I just miss you sooo much.

Rell mean so much to me I was his cup cake and I still havea coversation
with him all the time beacuse I know that he is watching over me and my
family but I wish that I could see and talk to my son but you know what
jr is going to be another rell and I wish that he will have the same
attitude and the same sprit 2 help and do what he can for others  we
love you rell Merk and JR

Jarrelle not a day goes by that we don't think of you and expect you to come to see us because we miss you so much son. We miss you more each day and we love you now and forever. we miss your Beautiful smile...your kind voice...your laugh and those conversations that only the family can know. We was so blessed to have had you as a son

                                

We know we cannot call you on the phone anymore but in our heart we talk to you everyday. A child bond is so strong that not even in death can it be broken. Life is forever changed by your absence but we will forever hold you in our heart and remember you for the rest of our life. We miss you forever and we will hold all of your goodness in our heart.son you know how many people love and miss you.You are always in our heart and thoughts everyday from earth to Heaven. We know one thing that you are our Special son and Angel.

                                           Love You son

                                        moma      

                                     We will never say good-bye

                        Good-bye is just a word that we will never say .

WHAT DONT KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER       

To our son -JARRELLE

We hope you know how truly proud we are of you and the man you had grown up to be. Rell you are a fine son you were and will always be. You were strong, generous, and always ready to jump in feet first to help others. You were capable of anything you set your mind to and there weren't too many things you wouldn't tackle. (Big Johntape records.)
Jarrelle I had no idea how tall and strong and handsome you were I didn't seem to know it until I look at your pictures that you was a young man I always looked at you as little boy my little boy.,You were humble and sometimes shy, and always sensitive to the feelings of people around you.
WHAT DON'T KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER?                 
                                                YOUR PARENTS LOVE YOU RELL

                                                                 11/2007

                                  

 

                                    MY SON..

 

 

MY HANDSOME, SMART, TALENTED SON. SO MANY DREAMS UNFULFILLED.YOU BRIGHTEN MY DAY WITH YOUR WARM SWEET SMILE AND YOUR BAD WALK YOUR  MOMA LOVE TO SEE.RELL MY HEART SHINE WHEN YOU WANTED TO TALK AND GO SHOPPING WITH ME AND YOUR SISTER. JARRELL THIS PART OF YOUR LIFE WAS NEVER DISCUSSED. IT WAS NOT WHAT WE HAD PLANNED.I  REALIZE HOW IT'S TAKE ONE MOMMENT FOR OUR LIVES TO BE CHANGED FOREVER I REMEMBER ALL OUR RIDES AND TALKS AND OUR FUN TIMES TOGETHER,HOW IN ONE MOMENT OUR HOPES AND DREAMS FOR THE FUTURE CAN BE VANISH AWAYFROM A TRAGEDY LIKE THIS HAS CAUSED SO MUCH HEART ACHE ON OUR FAMILY AND LOVE ONES.BUT I SMILE WHEN I THINK  ABOUTYOU ARE HEAVEN AND WALKING ROUND TELLING OUR LOVE ONES UP THEIR WHAT TO DO.
RELL YOU ARE IN GODS CARE NOW AND I HAVE TO KNOW OUR GOD KNOWS WHATS BEST FOR US. PEGGY SAY YOU ARE FREE FROM THIS WORLD AND TRULY BLESSED TO BE IN THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD I THANK GOD FOR BLESSING ME WITH YOU,JARRELLE  AND YOUR BROTHER AND SISTER. FOR THAT LITTLE WHILE. WITH YOU. I WILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER .

                                      

      

         WHAT DONT KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER           


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                                                                  LOVE MOMA

 

 

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JARRELLE YOUR MOMA IS SO PROUD OF YOU. .
Jarrelle K Calhoun

what dont kill you only make you stronger

JARRELLE K CALHOUN

LOOK ! MEEKA AND RICHARD SON.HE IS SOO CUTE.

I  will celebrate your birth. I will celebrate my love for you and share my memories with whomever will listen to me.  On the date of your death, I will silently pray for you as I always do, but I will not let this rule me. I will not think of the way you died, but the way you lived and the love that you brought me and our family.  I will think of you every day and pray that God protects you as He did that day when you entered your next life.  I will live my life without you, but I will have you in my heart.  You are part of me as I am part of you. what don't kill you only make you stronger.      HAPPY 21 BIRTHDAY

                                                      MOMA LOVE YOU SON

                                   MY NEW ADDRESS

MY HOUSE IS SO BEAUTIFUL IT IS LOCATED ON AN ESTATE BEHIND THE PEARLY GATES. THE STREETS ARE PAVED WITH GOLD AND EVERY DAY IS LIKE SUNDAY. WHEN I GOT THERE I WALK AND TALK WITH THE MASTER I WAS WORRIED ABOUT MY FAMILY .THE MASTER TOLD ME NOT TO WORRY .YOU SEE THEY WILL BE ALL RIGHT. THERE IS PEACE IN HEAVEN, JOY HAPPINESS NO MORE CAR ACHE. HEAVEN IS SO SWEET. NO WHAT I CAN EAT AT THE MASTERS TABLE. I CAN TELL YOU MORE ABOUT MY NEW HOME, BUT INSTEAD, I, AM, TO PRAY THAT YOU GET MOVE YOURSELF someday. OH BEFORE I GO LET ME GIVE YOU MY ADDRESS THAT I HAVE HAD FOR THE LAST THREE YEARS AND FOUR MONTH'S;

                                  JARRELLE KALVIN CALHOUN
                                             17 SWEET YEARS ROAD
                                          GODS, HEAVEN 77777
PS MY MOMA TURN MY PHONE OFF BUT YOU CAN ALWAYS CALL ON GOD. IF YOU DON'T HAVE HIS NUMBER, PRAY. LOVE YOU.
                                                                       (JARRELLE CALHOUN)
                                                        

                 

                   CLAUDETTE CALHOUN
                                                                                  11/2007
WHAT DON'T KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER.
  
                                           

Today,

    I got a new view of your memorial site.  Jarrelle you are my youngest nephew and the glue of that side of the family still.  I will never forget or stop carring you in my heart.  The other day while talking to your mother and  watching animal planet I thought of how only you and I would be the one to appreciate the snakes.  They are as we know deadly but pretty.  Rell from time to time You cross my mind with a sweet memory.  Continue your flight and gather your wings for the ancestors and God truely love you best. 

 

HELLO SON I CAME DOWN HERE TO LOOK UP SOMETHING ON THE COMPUTER. WELL YOU SEE WHAT I AM DOING. RELL THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. ANGEL IS DOING IT UP I AM PROUD OF HER. I AM PROUD OF YOU ALL. Q WILL BE GOING TO SCHOOL FOR THE FIRST TIME THIS YEAR ARTHUR ASHE ELEMENTRY. KAYJON WILL BE IN THE SECOND GRADE HE WILL HAVE A NEW NAME THIS YEAR. LIL JOHN DID GET HIM A NEW CAR THIS WEEK.I TOLD YOUR DADDY THAT I WAS WORRIED ABOUT YOUR SISTER AND BROTHER. I CAUGHT ANGEL CRYING AND ANGEL IS A ROCK SHE IS VERY STRONG. LILJOHN WAS NOT CRAZY HAPPY LIKE HE ACT WHEN HE GET SOMETHING NEW.BIG JOHN SAY THEY MISS YOU. BECAUSE THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL AN ANGEL ALWAYS HAD YOU WITH HER.LIL JOHN LIKE WHEN YOU MAKE A FUSS OVER HIM AND YOU ALWAYS WASH AND KEEP HIS CAR CLEAN.I TOLD HIM I GUESS. RELL WATCH OUT FOR YOUR FAMILY I LOOOOVE YOU SON. I AM SURE THEY WILL BE OK. KYDA MISS YOU TOO. SHE IS GOING TO COLLEGE.

                          DEAR FATHER GOD

 

 

I JUST WANT TO THANK YOU FOR ALL MY TRIERS I KNOW THEY MADE ME STRONG. LORD JESUS I  ACCEPTED YOU IN MY LIFE MANY MANY YEARS AGO. LORD WHEN I HEARD MY BABY  HAD DROWN I WAS  PRAYING TO YOU.  MY GRANDMOMA ALWAYS TOLD ME NOT TO QUESTION YOU GOD, BUT I HAD TO THAT DAY 7/17/2004 WHY MY SON A CHILD THAT LOVE YOU THAT KNOW WHAT POWER YOU HAVE OVER HIS LIFE .A CHILD THAT KNOW YOU CANT DO NO WRONG. WHY MY SON LORD. A CHILD YOU BLESS WITH A FAMILY THAT ADORE HIM .WHY MY SON ? A CHILD WHO JUST FINISH HIGH SCHOOL HAD GOALS. WHY MY SON ? A YOUNG MAN THAT HAD A JOB NEVER MISS A DAY FROM WORK .. WHY MY SON ? A YOUNG MAN THAT I LOVE SO MUCH MY SON WHO HAD MY BACK . A SON WHO WILL PUT YOU IN YOUR PLACE IF HE NEED TO.  SMILE BACK AT YOU TO LET YOU KNOW YOU WAS WRONG BUT HE STILL LOVE YOU. A SON WILL DRIVE YOU CRAZY ABOUT ANY BODY HE CARED ABOUT. A CHILD THAT NEVER HAD A FRIEND IF YOU WAS HIS FRIEND YOU WAS HIS FAMILY.FATHER GOD I DID ASK YOU THESE THIINGS

LYING IN THAT HOSPITAL BED WITH THAT OXYGEN .LORD YOU SAY HE IS OK. .FATHER GOD I TOOK YOU AT YOUR WORD AND I KEPT ON PRAYING.

I JUST WAS NOT SATISFIED WITH MYSELF. WHY NOT ME LORD NO ANSWER .RELL HAD HIS WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF HIM I HAVE LIVE MINES.I NEED ANSWERS I TALK TO BIG JOHN HE SAID IT WAS NOT OUR TIME. THE TRANSPORTER CAME TO PICK ME UP THE NEXT DAY I SAID WHY MY SON LOOK AT ALL THEM GUY ON DRUGS,KILLING AND RAPPING WOMEN WHY NOT THEM ? SHE SAID HONEY GOD DONT WANT NO JUNK. HE NEEDED YOUR SON. GOD I DO UNDERSTAND HE IS A GOOD PERSON  I KNOW YOU LOAN HIM TO US FOR SEVENTEEN YEARS FATHER GOD I AM VERY HAPPY T HAT YOU LOAN HIM TO US.  ,BUT IT STILL HURTS I FELL HIS LOVE BUT I DO MISS HIM EVERY BODY TELL ME HE IS IN MY HEART . THANKYOU GOD FOR ALLOWING ME  TO SHARE JARRELLE KALVIN CALHOUN FOR SEVEN TEEN WONDERFUL YEARS .HE WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART UNTIL YOU SEND FOR ME.AND THE NAME OF JESUS AMAN.

SON  I CANT BELIVE ITS BEEN  THREE YEARS UMUMUMUM. JARRELLE YOU WAS MY LITTLE MAN. OUR BASEMENT FLOOD LAST MONTH. SOMETHINGS I HAD TO DO IF YOU WAS HERE I WOULD OF THOUGHT I WAS TO CUTE TO DO. RELL YOUR CUP CAKE GOT MARRIED AND HAVE A BABY BOY.AMANDA AND I KNOW YOU WILL BE THERE FOR HER. KITA AND TOYA TOOK THEIRE WALK ACROSS STAGE, I STILL PRAYING FOR A,P AND KIM THEY WILL DO IT. RELL I AM MISSING YOU MORE AND MORE. YOU SISTER WILL BE CHEERING FOR YOUR SCHOOL THIS SEPTEMBER . HOLD ON TO YOUR WINGS YOU KNOW IT WAS COMING BUT IT WILL BE IN AUGUST OF 2007. YES JOHN AND KAREY THEY WILL BE MARRIED. RELL I CAN SEE YOU KNOW STANDING UP THEIR BESIDE YOUR BROTHER. RELL WE WAS PLAYING WITH WATER GUN IT WAS NOT THE SAME KAY JON PLAY LIKE YOU NEVER GIVE UP WANT TO WET EVERY BODY UP. RELL YOU ARE ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS AND MY BABY BOY .THE TIME IS GETTING CLOSER FOR THE DAY THE ANGEL CAME AND TOOK YOU HOME. RELL WHAT DONT KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER, SON I LOVE AND I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU. I HOPE YOU DOING WHAT YOU DO, MAKE EVERYBODY YOU MEET FILL LOVE.

SON,OH SON THIS WAS ONE OF THE WORST MONTHS FOR ME I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY I HATE GOING TO THE MALL. THIS MONTH WAS EASTER AND I COULD NOT SHAKE MY SADNEST  AT ALL JARRELLE I START GETTING MAD ALL OVER AGAIN ABOUT LIFE. I WOULD CRY COMING HOME FROM WORK. SOMETIME I WILL JUST SMILE AT ANGEL AND HOPE SHE UNDERSTAND THAT I LOVE HER AND SO PROUD OF HER BUT I JUST MISS ALL THE THINGS WE ALL DID .EASTER WAS NICE GRANDMOMA HAD DINNER FOR EVERYBODY WE HAD A NICE TIME RELL IT WAS NOT THE SAME RELL WE DID NOT DYE EGGS FOR THE KIDS I WAS NOT MY SELF NO EASTER BASKETS.MY HEART WAS NOT HAPPY THIS YEAR. I WILL DO BETTER ..RELL I MISS AND LOVE YOU

                                     THE PAIN  

THE PAIN NEVER STOP AND .

THE TEARS NEVER STOP

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BABY I LOVE YOU SON

JARRELLE KALVIN CALHOUN WHAT DONT KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER.

I can't believe it's been two years and three months. I really misS you Rell. Just think this would had been your second year in college. You've going to Reynolds then going to Heartfield. You miss out on going to the club on your eighteenth b- day. Also having your son and nameing it The Rell Calhoun, and naming your daughter Momma Mia  Mia X Calhoun. But I hope that would have been your kids nickname. Que and Kay is just like you. Que gives name like you, you know those crazy names. Kay is lovable you know how we can't stay mad at you. They both have Imagination like you. They have good memories of you and they always talk about their Uncle Rell Rell. John and I are the same as you can see. Kita. she the same. Moma is too, and Dad. The family is doing better now. But I know you was going to shine down on the family and give us better days.

                                  A GIFT

ON AUGUST THE FIRST 1983 I WAS GIVEN A GIFT ON AUGUST THE FIRST 1986 I WAS GIVEN A GIFT.ON JULY 15, 1990 I WAS GIVEN A GIFT. A GIFT OF LOVE A GIFT OF HAPPINESS. ON JULY 17, 2004 ONE OF MY GIFTS WENT ON HOME WITH THE LORD.THIS GIFT NAME WAS JARRELLE KALVIN CALHOUN WE CALL HIM RELL SHORT FOR JARRELLE, MY GIFTS TAUGHT ME ABOUT SHARING AND NOT THINK OFJUST MYSELF BUT OTHERS.THEY TAUGHT ME WHAT LOVE WAS REALLY ABOUT..JARRELLE LEFT US TWO YEARS AGO BUT MY LOVE AND MEMORIES OF HIM AND HIS SMILE IS ALWAYS WITH ME. SOMETIMES IT HARD TO THINK ABOUT LIFE WITHOUT HIM I GO ON.BECAUSE I KNOW RELL WOULD WANT ME TO TAKE CARE OF HIS SISTERS AND BROTHER AND FAMILY THE PEOPLE HE LOVED THE MOST.JARRELLE WOULD WANT ME TO BE HAPPY AND I TRY BUT ON HOLIDAYS OR ON HIS BIRTHDAY IT IS HARD,IT IS SAD IT IS LONELY WITH OUT HIM. SOMETIMES I DONT KNOW HOW I LIVE WITH OUT HIM.GOD AND MY OTHER CHILDREN GIVE ME THE STRENGTH. GOD LET ME KNOW THAT RELL IS SAFE WITH HIM. MY HEART GROWS EVERY DAY WITH LOVE FOR YOU I TRY TO BE THE PERSON THAT YOU WANT ME TO BE . I AM YOUR MOTHER AND WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR MOTHER,LOVE YOU SON .

                                                                                              MOMA

                                                                                             1/17/2007

                              YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BABY

 

 

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BABY I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I MISS YOU ALWAYS I ALWAYS ASK WHY YOU ? I ASK WHY NOT A BAD PERSON WHO GO OUT IN KILL PEOPLE OR HURT OTHER PEOPLE.I DID GET IN ANSWER OUR GOD DONT WANT ANY JUNK. MY BABY BOY I LOVE YOU. MOMA

                                       RELL

 

TODAY IS THANKSGIVING IT WAS NICE ALL YOUR SIBLING WAS HERE. AUNT REE CAME OVER . THE FOOD WAS GOOD. WE TALKED ABOUT YOU . WE LAUGH SO HARD ABOUT THE THINGS YOU WOULD DO WITH SUGAR. RELL YOU LOVE TO EAT SUGAR. THE LAST TURKEY AND HAM YOU BROUGHT US THE LAST TIME YOU BROUGHT HOME WAS THE BEST TURKEY AND HAM I EVER HAD   BECAUSE MY LITTLE BOYS BROUGHT THANKSGIVING DINNER THAT YEAR, PROUD MOTHER. WE STAYED HOME THIS YEAR WE DID NOT GO OUT THE HOUSE, WE HAD TURKEY,HAM,SWEETPOTATO,GREENS,CORNPUDDEN,STRING BEANS,POTATO SALAD, MACARONI SALAD,STUFFING, MACARONI AND CHEESE,CAKESAND PIES. ANGEL MADE A CAKE IN IT DID NOT FALL..WE ALL ATE IN THE DINNING ROOM  YOU ALWAYS LOVE SITTING IN THE DINNING FROM FOR THE HOLIDAYS.RELL WE MISS YOU SOO MUCH. WE WAS TALKING ABOUT CHRISTMAS KITA ASK ME WHAT DO I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS?DANIEL (Q) SAY BARR WANT UNCLE RELL TO COME BACK HOME HE IS WRIGHT. I KNOW ! THATS WHY GIFTS NOT IMPORTING TO ME ANY MORE.WHAT DONT KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER.

 

                                                MY HEART ACHES

I STILL CANT BELIEVE ALL THIS HAPPEND A SIMPLE DAY AT THE BEACH. WE HAVE BEEN GOING TO THAT BEACH FOR  TEN YEARS OR MORE.THE 17TH OF JULY/2004. A  FAMILY DAY AND LOSSES YOUR YOUNGEST SON. OUR FAMILY WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN. THE CHAIN HAS BEEN BROKEN .EVERY MORNING IS HARD TO WAKE UP AND KNOWING YOU WANT BE HERE.

             

                                                                                                   MISS YOU SON

RELL AS I SIT IN READ ALL THESE WONDERFUL THINGS PEOPLE SAY ABOUT YOU. RELL YOU WAS THE ENGINE TO OUR FAMILY. I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY. I WAS BLESS TO HAVE GOOD CHILDREN. ITS WAS EASY TO KEEP YOUR IN ORDER. RELL YOU ARE MY YOUNGEST SON AND THE HARDEST OF  THEM ALL.  IT'S SO NICE TO SEE YOU WAS IN STILL IS LOVE . RELL GOD BLESS YOU LOVE MOMMA .(WHAT DONT KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER)

TO MY COUSIN I JUST NEED A MONMENT TO SIT RIGHT HERE TO TELL U WHAT I BEEN DOING  SINCE U WENT IN ENTERNAL LIFE. IT WAS THE HARDESS TWO  YEAR IN MY LIFE FOR ME AND YOUR AUNT WANDA. IF U WAS HERE I WOULD OF BEEN CUSS OUT BY NOW. I CAN HERE U NOW AUNT WANDA TELL AP GET HIS ASS IN THE HOUSE .U NO U HAD A WAY WITH WORDS. IN THE LAST 2 YEARS I WAS THROWN OUT SHCOOL FOR GETTING IN SOMEONE ELSE BATTLE , TALKING BACK TO MY MOTHER, BREAKING ALL THE RULES. JUST SAY THAT I USE TO ALWAYS WANT TO BE JUST LIKE U I ALWAYS WONDER WHY BUT NOW I GETTING OLDER AND I REALIZE  U HAD A LOT OF POSTIVE INFULENCE IN A LOT OF PEOPLE LIVE AND IT TOOK YOUR LIFE FOR PEOPLE TO EXPLAIN IT MORE I NO IN MY CASE IT DID U HELD THIS FAMLIY TOGETHER THROUGH THICK AND THIN YOU WHERE THE HEART OF THE FAMLIY. IF THE FAMLIY WAS A BIG CAR  U WILL KNOWN YOUR PART IT WILL BE THE MOTOR CAUSE U CANT MOVE FORWARD  WITH OUT IT AND U CANT MOVE BACKWARD WITH OUT IT EITHER AND THAT JUST SAYING WE CANT BRING U BACK BUT CAN SEE U WHEN WE GET THERE. RELL LISTEN TO THIS  OR U PROBLY ALL READY NO U HAD TO BE WATCHING OVER ME I DID THE DUMBESS THING EVER LAST NIGHT I WAS DRIVING IN A STOLEN CAR AND GOT PULL AND THEY PUT ME IN HANDCUFF AND THEN THIS MORNING I WAS ARREST PUT THEY DROP THE CHARGES EVERONE SAY IT WAS THE BLESS OF AN ANGEL AND IM GLAD I GOT 5 AND THE YOUNGEST HELP ME I LOVE YOU FOR THAT AND TELL THEM I LOVE THEM TO THANK U AND DONT WORRIED RELL ME AND JON  STILL MAKING SURE ANGEL DONT GET NO BOYFRIEND BUT I NO SHE BE LOOKING AT THEM AT SHCOOL SO THAT WHEN U COME IN.  RELL I LOVE U MAN ALWAYS AP IM PRAY TONIGHT GOD BLESS U AND THE FAMILY

Hey Rell dis yo Toya Boo I miss you a whole lot especially that crazy laugh. Rell highschool is almost over for me and all I could think about is when I didnt I have no one to take me to get my school supplies and i never thought to ask you then the next thing I knew you and Angel was outside blowing the horn and we went all the way to Ashland you made sure i had the best. Rell I wish you were here because us teens are running wild without you but I know you will keep us tight and make sure we are going in the right direction. I love you and I miss you.