JARRELLE KALVIN CALHOUN

I tried to "prepare" myself for certain scenarios in life, I never thought of this one. (Absolute heartbreak) I don’t      know how the body manages to continue. It feels like it's breaking down but somehow not and at times I wish it would. It has been 11 years.

  Mama, please don't cry. I'm in heaven, looking down. I watch you day and night. I watch you smile. I watch you cry. We'll be together again one day. But in your heart, I'm with you always. Mama, mama, please don't cry. You loved me then. You love me now. You protect me when I get scared. You taught me to pray. You held me down when the world let me down. Mama you always been there for me and my siblings. Claudette Calhoun I am safe in heaven now. Please don't cry. I loved you then I love you more now.

 

Dear Rell,

I have been saying my prayers since July 02, 1968. I will continue with the prayers till my time to leave this earth comes along. I will never forget that golden smile of yours. You are such a beautiful boy you have given me another reason to leave this world in peace when my time comes. You will be the first one that I will look up when I make it to heaven. Rell you have pushed my grandmamma and daddy to second and third place. Rell you will be my hero. Rell I realize that you are with the good lord. Rell I know our family in heaven watch over you. I wish that I could have taken your place, so that you could be here with our family. Son you will be forever in my mind and heart.

Today is your birthday and although you cannot be here Good day My Son Jarrelle Kalvin Calhoun I miss celebrate I will celebrate for you with in my heart. Today you would have been 29 years old, wow and a very young handsome compassionate man you would have been. I praise the Heavenly Father for the time I had with you and the joy you brought to my life as well as so many others. 8/01/2015

Hello Rell I Was Just Thinking About You And I Miss You So Much And I Was So Upset You Was Not At My Graduation But I Know You Was There In Spirit But I Wanna You To My There In Body And The Family Miss You I Know I Have Not Been On Here In A While But I Just Wanna To Tell You And I Had A Good Dream About You And We Was Talking Last Night... Lovee You Big Cuzn

Even when the road grows long & weary,your love will rescue me.(JARRELLE)

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I hope you don't forget me
Now you are so far away
For i know that i wont
I think about you every day
*.....*.....*.....*.....*.....*
I have the sweetest memories
Each one now like a dream
Those times when i was happy
Now all i want to do is scream
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Plans we made together
I cant do them without you
You played a big part in my life
Now lost and lonely without you
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I leave messages and poems
Its the only thing that i can do
Until we join at Heavens Gates
I have sweet memories of you♥

MAY HE LIVE IN ALL OUR HEARTS , HERE IN SPIRIT AND NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN.

I WILL BE SENDING YOU A PRAYER WITH MUCH LOVE AND HUGS. I KNOW WHEN WE SEND PRAYERS IT'S JUST LIKE SENDING YOU A CARD.

YOU ARE LOVED AND MISSED BY ALL. ALWAYS AND FOREVER.

 

YOU WILL LIVE AND SHINE THROUGH

us

You will live forever in our memories and hearts. I wanted to make this as a way for people to remember my son for the person he was through out his life and not focus on last 7/17/2004. He was a son, a brother, a grand son, an uncle, a cousin, a nephew, godfather and friend. He loved and touched so many life’s

I have thoughts of you every day. Something will happen and I can hear you say it is OK. We found a keys this weekend. I cry a million tears in my heart for you each day but the blessing is you are happy and at peace. I know you have made new friends and all of them love you as we do. I think of our talks and I cherish them .You were one my best friend, even though you were my son. I worried about you like a mother hen and know at times you wished I had not but I wanted your tobe safe. Your safe now and I know God has a plan for you. You touched so many lives. Thank you for being such a loving and caring son and will love you forever.

LOVE YOU SON

Think of you every day. Wishing you were here will never end but we know you are happy where you are and carefree. I think of the things you did when you were little and laugh. You were so cute and sweet. You remained that way, with some exceptions ,lol all your life .We loved you and so proud you were our son.

They say that time heals all wounds but all it’s done so far is give me more

time to think about how much I miss you.

Rell had a sweet nature. Rell love his family. Whenever any of them called for help, he was always there for us. He had a great personality and a wonderful sense of humor. Whenever I said I love you son, he said I know love you to. Miss him so much and always will every day of my life until I meet him again.

Rell had a sweet nature. Rell love his family. Whenever any of them called for help, he was always there for us. He had a great personality and a wonderful sense of humor. Whenever I said I love you son, he said I know love you to. Miss him so much and always will every day of my life until I meet him again.

RELL I MISS U CUZ IT MEAN 6 YEAR SINCE I SEEN U CUZ I WILL NEVER FORGET U BRA U WILL ALWAYS HAVE AYE PEACE OF U IN MY HEART I LOVE U CUZ AN UM ON MY RAPPIN THANG NOW TOO I DOWN ON US CUZZO WE GOT TO FIND AWAY TO BRING THE FAMILY CLOSE BRA I LOVE U

Hi Rell,
I am a friend of your Mom's.  I assume you know - 'cause where you are, you are watching all of us now.  I wanted to touch base with you, mostly as a support and tribute to her.  What a sad, sad life that you didn't get a longer dose of your mama.  'Cause she is such a joy and such a wise, intuitive soul.  She supports me in so many ways.  She is sensitive and kind and ever-faithful.  I forever will not understand why you and her had to be separated for this time.  I believe with my whole being that it is not a permanent separation - but, jeepers, long enough to hurt so deep.  I watch her continuing daily - and bearing the burden of the pain of your loss.  And my heart aches for her. 

You live on here.  I want you to know that.  You live on because your mama keeps your spirit alive.  And what are we if we are not spirits?  Spirits of compassion and love and fervor and passion and creativity and humor and endurance ...

I love you, Claudette.  I feel your loss every day.  And I thank you for sharing your pain and your strength with me so that I can learn and grow and feel more.  After all, that is what this life must be all about - feeling.  If we are not feeling, the good and the bad, then we have no soul.  And you are nothing if not soul.  Jarelle's soul lives on.  Of that, I know - all because of you.  Thank you for opening your heart to me.

Isabella

PEOPLE SAID IT EASY TO GET OVER A PERSON WHEN THEY ARE GOING BUT THEY MUST NOT KNOW WHO YOU WHERE BECUESE YOU ARE STILL MISS IN AVERY ONES HEART WE WILL ALLWAY LOVE YOU UNTIL WE SEE YOU AGAIN . IF YOU SEE REST ARE THE FAMILY SAID HI WE LOVE  AND MISS THEM TO.

                                                   I LOVE YOU RELL

 

Play Me!

 

Play Me!

 

Play Me!

 RELL I DO LOVE YOU AND YOUR SIBLINGS VERY MUCH I WAS JUST PLAYING WITH THIS GRAPHIC THING

                   LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME

LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. RELL I KNOW OUR FAMILY LOVE YOU AND NONE OF US THE SAME. WE ALL TALK ABOUT YOU ALOT. I KNOW YOU HEAR US.RELL I KNOW YOU BE SMILING. RELL  THANKSGIVING WAS OK.RELL I AM SURE IT WILL GET BETTER . LOVE YOU SON.

 

 

WHAT DONT KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONG

                                        RELL

 

 

 

 

HELLO SON RELL I MISS YOU WE ALL JOIN ANOTHER CHURCH ANGEL, KAREY AND KAYJON WILL BE GETTING BAPTIZE ON SUNDAY SEPTEMBER THE SEVENTH I HOPE THE SUN WILL BE OUT EVERYBODY SAY THEY WILL BE THEIR. RELL I KNOW YOU WILL BE THER RELL I HAVE TO BELIEVE YOU KNOW WHAT WE ARE DOING EVERY DAY AND RELL YOU KNOW WHAT WE ALL ARE GOING THROUGH. JACKIE CHILDREN GAVE HER A MEMORIAL SERVICE ON YESTERDAY HALF OF THE FAMILY WAS NOT THEIR WE HAVE TO PRAY HARDER FOR OUR FAMILY. YOUR BABY SISTER WILL BE A SENIOR THIS YEAR RELL I THANK GOD FOR YOUR. I TOLD YOU QUE GAVE ME HIS COMPUTER I THOUGHT THAT WAS NICE HE HAVE CUT ALL HIS HAIR OFF NOW HE LOOK LIKE HIS MOMA .KAY NEED TO KEEP HIS HAIR CUT HE HAVE THE N----- HAIR BUT THEY BOTH CUTE AND LOVABLE. I CAN SAY THAT, RELL I AM IN YOUR COLD ROOM SO I WILL WRITE YOU LATER LOVE YOU SON. SEPTEMBER 01, 2008

 

                       l LONG FOREVER

 

RELL SON YOU LEFT US SO QUICKLY THERE WERE NO GOOD BYES.

RELL YOUR DEATH IS FOREVER AND OUR LIVES.

         THE SADNESS THE ANGER THE LONELINESS OF YOU

          WE ALL PREFERRED HAVING YOU HERE ALWAYS LOVE YOU SON.                                                

 

                                                          SEPTEMBER 14 2008

 

 

 

Dear Rell,

I have been saying my prayers since July 02,1970 . I will continue with the prayers till my time to leave this earth comes along. I will never forget that golden smile of yours . You are such a beautiful boy you have given me another reason to leave this world in peace when my time comes. You will be the first one that I will look up when I make it to heaven.Rell you have pushed my grandmoma and daddy to second and third place. Rell you will be my hero.Rell I realize that you are with the good lord.Rell I know our family in heaven watch over you. I wish that I could had taken your place, so that you could be here with our family.Son you will be forever in my mind and heart.

 

      
My Loving Son
Tears of pain just keep flowing like the pouring rain, you were only seventeen,
only a young teen,
No more 'I Love You’
No phone calls, God is this all true!
No no more hugs,
No more kisses ,
My Loving Son
My broken heart will never mend
Until I meet you again!
I know you now have wings
And your Halo is made of Gold...
You are smiling and so happy
A smart boy who was so bold
Where you are in heaven there is no more pain
I only hope your death will not be in vain
Words cant express how much we miss you
Only our heavy heart know the truth
No goodbyes my son, wait there for me
We will rest in Gods home eternally! 

 

CLAUDETTE I AM WATCHING YOU AND I HEAR EACH TEAR FALL ON YOUR FACE. MOMA AT THE MENTION OF MY NAME IT SOUND LIKE MUSIC TO TO YOUR EARS. IT CAN BE HEARD OVER  A BASKETBALL GAME. MOMA I HEAR YOUR TEARS FALL ON YOUR FACE. MOMA I WATCH YOU GO THROUGH EACH DAY AND YOU WISHES THE DAY WOULD END. MOMA WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT ME TO YOUR FRIENDS AND OUR FAMILY I HEAR YOU.I ASK THE GOOD LORD WILL MY MOMA EVER BE THE SAME ? I HEAR EVER TEAR FALL ON HER FACE . MOMA I SEND YOU HUGS . THE LORD SAY HE WILL WIPE EVERY TEAR AWAY. MOMA I AM WATCHING YOU AND I HEAR EVERY TEAR FALL ON YOUR FACE . MOMA I WILL CALL YOUR NAME I WOULD SAY CLAUDETTE CAMMACK CALHOUN THATS MY MOMA.                          

LOVE YOU SON 2/23/08

How can I go on without your smiles, your love? You were my youngest son. You came to me for everything. I miss our talks, oh how I miss our talks. I remember the day I brought you home you looking up at me. The pain in my heart is so great without you here. I pray daily to God to get me through the hurt. I'm angry that could not save you that day at the beach. Your heart was so good. You saw good in everyone and just wanted to help.You'll never know the lives you touched my Rell I hear daily how many people miss you. I also hear how big a heart you had and how you helped others. Giving them your last. How did a Young Man of 17 have that big of heart? Son, I want you back with us so bad. I hope you know how much I loved and still Love you. Please watch over us show us how to live and love as you have loved. Be our angel to guide us through the pain. Never leave me. Let your spirit be our comfort. Their is no way I can say good-bye and I never will. But I will say Fly my Rell Touch All Those You Couldn't Touch! Love Those Who Didn't Show YOU Love! And Forgive Those Who Have Hurt YOU I. Pray you teach me how to do these things also. Please help me to not become bitter and to live in yours and Gods. image. Until we meet again, I Love and Miss You My Son. what dont kill you only make you stronger.

Dear father God:

please watch over the children you loan me cover each one of them with your blood. thank you in the name of Jesus I pray amen 

                                                               
what don't kill you only make you stronger       

Jarrelle not a day goes by that we don't think of you and expect you to come to see us because we miss you so much son. We miss you more each day and we love you now and forever. we miss your Beautiful smile...your kind voice...your laugh and those conversations that only the family can know. We was so blessed to had you as a son. We know we can not call you on the phone anymore but in our heart we talk to you everyday. A child bond is so strong that not even in death can it be broken. Life is forever changed by your absence...but we will forever hold you in our heart and remember you for the rest of our life. We miss you forever and we will hold all of your goodness in our heart.son you know how many people love and miss you.You are always in our heart and thoughts everyday from earth to Heaven. We know one thing that you are our Special son and Angel.

                                           Love You son

                                        moma      

                                     We will never say good-bye

                        Good-bye is just a word that we will never say        

 

                                                   

FADED ROSE RELL MOMA LOVE  SON.

                                                                        12/16/07

RELL YOU MAY BE FAR AWAY BUT CLOSE TO OUR

                              

                       HEART

 

RELL SON YOU TOOK THE MASTER HAND ALL ALONE. SON DID YOU LOOK BACK? RELL I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY. RELL I, AM, PROUD OF YOU AND YOUR SISTERS AND BROTHER. WHAT DON'T KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER?
                                                              LOVE YOU SON
                                                                 MOMA  11/07

 

 

 

    TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS THIS IS A POEM WAS SENT TO ME FROM A FRIEND THAT SOUND LIKE SOMETHING RELL WOULD SAY TO US.

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me 

When tomorrow starts without me
and I'm not here to see... 
If the sun should rise and find your
eyes filled with tears for me, 

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today... 
While thinking of the many things
we didn't get to say. 

I know how much you love me, 
as much as I love you... 
And each time you think of me, 
I know you'll miss me, too. 

But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand... 
That Jesus came and called my name
and took me by the hand, 

And said my place was ready
in heaven far above... 
And that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love. 

So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart... 
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.
  

We miss RELL




                             FAMILY

 

 

 

Go now, my son, the time for you,to go
All tasks today are done.
There are others waiting there for you,
And songs yet to be sung.
Go quietly, go softly,
Leave all pain and fear behind.
Today has left a part of you
In our hearts, our souls, and minds.
I’ll remember you, my dear one,
As I lay down to sleep.
I’ll remember that you made me smile,
Although, it makes me weep.
As you go to face your future,
As you go to touch the sky
Know that God makes all things possible,
Angels never die.
Go now, my child, the time has come.
All worldly tasks are done.
There are others waiting there for you,
And songs yet to be sung.

 JARRELLE SHOULD BE HERE WITH US.

                                            

HELLO SON I, AM, IN YOUR ROOM THAT'S WERE I, AM, MOST OF THE TIME WHEN I, AM, ALONE. RELL YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY HEAD. SON  BECAUSE I DON'T. RELL I LOVE GOD I DO I ALSO BELIEVE HE DON'T BRING ME TO ANYTHING THAT HE DON'T BRING ME THROUGH IT. RELL SOME TIME I LOOK AT LIFE AND SAY ITS NOT FAIR. MY BABY BOY SHOULD BE HERE WITH ME AND OUR FAMILY RELL SHOULD BE IN COLLEGE WORKING AND BUY ALL KINDS OF OLD CARS FIX THEM UP WITH JOHN AND UNCLE VENSON. TELLING UNCLE MONI SOMEBODY IS NOT DOING THEIR JOB.MY RELL SHOULD BE HERE SO HE CAN TELL ANGEL COME ON I WILL LET YOU DRIVE MY NEW CAR. MY RELL TELLING ME MOMA YOU WORRY TO MUCH LILJOHN IS OK JUST GET HIM A CELLPHONE.  NOBODY IN THIS WORLD DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS MY LITTLE MAN. TELLING KITA YOU BETTER STOP SPEEDING . TELLING LILJOHN ITS OK I GOT YOUR BACK.TELLING QUE I, AM, GOING PICK YOU UP SO YOU WANT HAVE TO GO TO CHEERING PRACTICE. RELL WE ALL LOVE AND MISS YOU.RELL YOU SHOULD BE HERE TO TAKE THE OLD FOLKS OUT TO WALMART. I KNOW THE GOOD LORD HAD OTHER PLANES FOR YOU .I KNOW AND SOME TIME I UNDERSTAND BUT I, AM, A SELFISH MOTHER SOMETIME. YOU SHOULD BE HERE TO PICK UP KAYJON UP ON FRIDAYS FROM SCHOOL AND TAKE HIM OUT. KAY WOULD HAVE LOVE THAT AND YOU WOULD HAVE TOO. THE GOOD LORD KNOWS BEST. A. P. SAY IT THE BEST OF  US ALL YOU WAS THE MOTOR TO OUR FAMILY AND WE ALL MISS AND LOVE YOU BUT RELL I, AM,  GOING TO BE STRONG FOR OUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS UNTIL I LEAVE THIS WORLD. RELL I DO BELIEVE YOU ARE WITH EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US. WHAT DON'T KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER.RELL YOU SHOULD BE HERE CALLING AUNT AMANDA EVERY TIME YOU GET A BREAK ASKING HER WHAT THE CHILDREN DOING (ARE THEY GETTING ON YOUR NERVES). TELLING AUNT WANDA I, AM, GOING  TO TAKE YOU TO THE DOCTOR. TELL ANNETTE ITS GOING TO BE OK. TELLING UNCLE BILLY I STILL HAVE YOUR THREE DOLLARS. RELL WHERE IS THAT THREE DOLLARS? CALLING JACKIE WHEN SHE WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE.RELL WE ALL LOVE AND MISS YOU. RELL GIVE 101 PERCENT MAKE YOUR MOMA PROUDE . MY SWEET ANGEL.RELL I CAN HEAR YOU TELLING AUNT REE WE ARE GOING TO GET YOU A NEW CAR.RELL I LOVE AND MISS YOU SON.

                                                     LOVE YOU MAN

                                                            CLAUDETTE

     WHAT DONT KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONG,

 

 

SON THATS  A TRUE SAYING LORD ONLY KNOWES  WHAT WE CAN BEAR

 RELL LOSING YOU WAS THE WORST THING IN MY LIFE. RELL YOUR SISTERS AND BROTHER GIVE ME STRENGTH TO GO FORWARD TO MAKE ITTHROUGH ANOTHER DAY I NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHEN PEOPLE WOULD SAY SMILING ON THE OUTSIDE BUT CRYING IN THE INSIDE. SON I KNOW THE MEANING ALL SO WELL RELL WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES SOMETIME I SEE YOU AND ALL OF US ON A PICNIC TABLE AND YOU TELL US WHAT TO DO. I ALWAYS SAY WE MUST BE IN HEAVEN BECAUSE RELL I AM THE MOMA I TELL YOU WHAT TO DO. RELL I HOPE THESE DREAM COME TRUE ONE DAY. RELL OUR LIFE IS GOOD BUT WE ALL JUST MISS YOU SO MUCH. RELL I HAVE TO BE STRONG FOR OUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS THATS WHY I ALWAYS SAY WHAT DONT KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER.

                        SON

 

RELL I MISS YOU SO MUCH , I WISH I COULD SEE YOU JUST ONE LAST TIME TOTELL YOU HOW MUCH I  LOVE YOU. RELL NOT  A DAY GO BY WHEN I DONT THINK OF YOU. SINCE YOU BEEN GONE MY WORLD HAVE BEEN RIPPED INTWO.I WILL CRY A MILLION TEAR BUT IT WANT BRING YOU BACK .NOW ALL MY MEMORIES ARE JUST PICTURES.RELL I AM SCARED THAT I WILL FORGET THE WAY YOU WALK.RELL I NEED YOU TO GUIDE ME WITH YOUR SHINING LIGHT.RELL ITS BEEN THREE LONG YEARS ITS SO HARD KNOWING THAT YOU ARE NO LONGER HERE. RELL I AM MISSING YOU MORE AND MORE.RELL I ASK GOD TO GIVE ME A SIGN SO I CAN KNOW YOU ARE WATCHING OVER US SINCE YOU BEEN GONE

I FEEL SO INCOMPLETE RELL I HOPE YOU KNOW HOW MUCH WE LOVE AND MISS YOU. RELL GOD SHOW ME THE SIGN (LEAVE MY DOLLS )ALONE. LOVE YOU. 

Hey rell i miss you i was crying when you died, but you at went home to god we love  you Rell and we hope you are happy were you are now.

HEY RELLwhat you doing Imiss you  so  much and the famliy   do   to . my    brother    is  doing  ok   he  is  a good  boy  now   he  dont  get in TO  trouble     no       more   cause    he   stay     at     grandma   house  and     trell    love    you     and   trell   miss   you    and    i    love    you      i   was     dream   of   you     that    day  that    you     walk    me    home    from     school    and    i   was    cry ing    i  love  you  rell goodbye.

o m god  rell it time for me to walk cross that stage in 9 more weeks . o m g rell i am going to be so happy . i did it i am doing what u told me i stay in school i did not miss the bus this year wait hold up i did me n your crazy sista did the other day  but rell i been doing so good so far that crazy cook ask how was the faMILY DOING , HAZY STILL TALKIN BOUT WHEN YALL WENT TO KD IN GOT ON THE ROLLCOASTER IN YOUR WERE JUSTIN CUSSING . WE LOL ABOUT THAT IN CLASS. MANE RELL I AM GOIGN TO BE HONST IT HARD GETTING OUT AUNT BERNI CAR IN THE MORNIN WITHOUT HEAR MUSIC WHEN U WALK  UP TO THE DOOR. IT HARD NOT HEARIN U RUN UP THEM STAIRS  IN SAY KIERRA   IT HARD NOT HEARIN U N ANGEL NOT FUSS OVER MILK N THE MORNIN IT HARD I JUST SIT N ANGEL ROOM N BE READY TO CRY CAUSE I MISS HEARIN U . I MISS READY TO WALK OUT THE DOOR N HEAR U SAY HAVE A GOOD DAY AT SCHOOL.  . N  WHEN U I GET OFF THE BUS WE GOING TO RIDE THE BIKES THIS EVEN SO HURRY UP N DO UR HOMEWORK. I LOOK BACK EVERY MORNIN WAIT TO HEAR U SAY THAT. THEN I MISS U EVEN MORE WHEN I GET TO SCHOOL CAUSE I MISS WAIT FOR THE BELL TO RING  N C U CARRYIN MS. PARKER STUFF TO HER ROOM .  N U KNW  WHAT  WAS OUR BEST PART OF THE DAY LUNCH . WE USE TO HAVE FUN LAUGHIN AT OTHER PEOPLE WHILE WE LAUGHIN I TAKIN YOUR FFRIES . U FUSS AT OTHER PEOPLE AT THE TABLE THINKIN THAT THEY STOLE YOUR F FRIES. BUT RELL IT ALOT I CAN SAY BUT WHAT'S GOING TO REALLY GET ME WHEN IT TIME FOR ME TO WALK I GOING TO POINT IT TO THE SKY N SAY IT FOR U CUZ . I LOVE U ALWAYS  I WILL NEVER FORGET U . U ARE ALWAYS  N MY HEART.

                                                           I LOVE U RELL ,

 

RELL I MISS IN LOVE YOU

SOME PEOPLE SAY I SHOULD GIVE UP LET YOU GO. I AM SURE YOU ARE IN HEAVEN WITH OUR HEAVENLY FATHER.PEOPLE DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL PLEASE DONT TELL ME TO LET MY JARRELLE GO.YOU HAVE NOT LOST A CHILD . AGOOD CHILD.THE LORD HAD WORK FOR HIM TO DO. I DONT NEED TO HEAR THIS EACH DAY.I AM STRONG I HAVE TO BE GOD BLESS ME WITH THREE CHILDREN AND A NEICE THAT LOVE ME LIKE I AM HER MOTHER .JARELLE WAS ONLY SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD LIFE WAS JUST GETTING STARTED. HOW CAN I GIVEUP OR STOP LOVING OR WORRYING ABOUT MY LITTLE BOY (MAN).MY SON WAS A GOOD YOUNG MAN. STOOD UP FOR ME WHEN I COULD NOT SPEAKE FOR MYSELF. MAKE ME LAUGH WHEN I WANT TO CRY. WHEN I THOUGHT NO HOPE HE GAVE ME STREGTH TO GO ON .THE PEOPLE SAY I SHOULD LET MY RELL GO. YOU KNOW MY SON RELL IS NOT GOING TO LET ME OR YOU FORGET HIM, THATS RELL WHEN YOU ALL ALONE JUST WATCH THINGS CHANGE. AS LONG AS GOD GIVE ME STRENTH IN MY BODY I AM GOING TO LOVE JARRELLE IN ALL MY LOVE ONES .MY HEART WILL ALWAYS HURT I WILL ALWAYS FEEL SOME PAIN. I WILL NEVER LET GO.

 

• J-IS FOR THE JOY YOU GAVE US. 
• A-IS FOR THE ALL THE ANSWERS YOU GAVE
• R-IS FOR THE WAY YOU KEEP IT REAL.
• R-IS FOR THE WRONG YOU MADE RIGHT IN OUR LIFE.
• E-IS FOR THE EVERLASTING LOVE YOU GAVE US.
• L-IS FOR THE GOOD LOOKS WE GAVE YOU.
• L-IS FOR THE LAUGH WE SHARED.
• E-IS FOR THE EMPTINESS WE FEEL.

TO  THE ENTIRE CALHOUN FAMILY, I PRAY THAT GOD KEEP'S JARRELLE SAVE IN HIS ARMS. MAY GOD HELP YOU DURING THIS TRAGIC TIME OF LOSS. I HOPE & PRAY MY SON MICHAEL & YOUR SON JARRELLE ARE AT PEACE NOW & HAVE BECOME FRIENDS IN THAT PLACE SO FAR AWAY. GOD BLESS YOU ALL.   ROBIN MILLER & FAMILY

I MISS YOU SON. GETTING READY FOR THE HOLIDAYS DONT SEEM LIKE NOTHING. I DONT THINK NOBODY IN OUR HOUSE EXCITED. ANGEL JUST WANT CLOTHES, LILJOHN WANT A GAME SOLD OUT. KITA NEVER SAY. BIG JOHN WANTS A TRUCK OR A BIG TV. I WANT NOTHING THATS POSSIABLE. I KNOW YOU WILL HAVE A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS WITH THE GOOD LORD ON JESUS BIRTHDAY. RELL I HOPE YOU ARE SMILING DOWN ON US, I KNOW THATS THE ONLY THING THATSKEEPING ME GOING. LOVE AND MISS YOU SON. WHAT DONT KILL YOU ONLY MAKE YOU STRONG.

I LOVE AND MISS YOU FOREVER

I really miss talking to you face to face especially arguing with you. Well i'm going to write it down and tell you how I feel, and whats going on in the family. The family is falling a part thanksgiving we are not going to be together. We don't meet up on Fridays anymore. Only time we see each other on Fridays is if they order from the meat man.